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If you spend too long holding on to the one who treats you like an OPTION, You’ll miss finding the one who treats you like a PRIORITY…

Honestly, i was also a victim of this ideology, i choose to stay liking people who doesn’t even give a damn to me, Hoping someday that they will change their mind and eventually see me as a person who can they like too but i was wrong. In return people just keeps on neglecting me.

Then one day i finally realized what i am doing is a piece of crap, Hanging around with people who doesn’t even appreciates me, Looks at me as no one. as an invisible man. It’s over, because the only person who is suffering is me. I only give myself hard feelings towards people.

I just looked around then appreciate those people who appreciates me too. I only give time to those people who wants to be with my company. It’s more fulfilling instead of staying around with people who doesn’t even care with how i feel towards them.

A lesson to be learned is never expect something in return with people whom you care for because in the end you’ll end up burning yourself. “Kung ayaw mo, Wag mo!” simple as that…

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Upon seeing this in my news feed… One thing comes into my mind. Well it describes what i am experiencing for quiet some time now. Ironic but yeah it’s true, been self supporting my emotional needs and i hate it but i have no choice… Apparently, i’m nearing my 3 decades of existence and nothing seems to change in my life, No one seems to appreciate my existence. I will be forever friend zoned by this ladies? Will they still stick with their standards of good looks? Will they give a lad a chance to know him better rather than judging him already without giving any benefit of the doubt? These are still questions that i’m still looking for answers. I’m sick and tired of the same result, It’s so unfair… Why, why and why?

Upon seeing this in my news feed… One thing comes into my mind. Well it describes what i am experiencing for quiet some time now. Ironic but yeah it’s true, been self supporting my emotional needs and i hate it but i have no choice…

Apparently, i’m nearing my 3 decades of existence and nothing seems to change in my life, No one seems to appreciate my existence. I will be forever friend zoned by this ladies? Will they still stick with their standards of good looks? Will they give a lad a chance to know him better rather than judging him already without giving any benefit of the doubt? These are still questions that i’m still looking for answers.

I’m sick and tired of the same result, It’s so unfair… Why, why and why?

THE LONELY FEELING You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no ones going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.

THE LONELY FEELING

You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no ones going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.

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WEEKEND BUDDY Before i used to have a weekend buddy to turn a boring weekend to an enjoyable one. If i am not mistaken this was the time of the year last year when i started going out with her. Started by communicating via comments through status updates in FB then the rest was history. I am not posting this to make a name for myself, to brag about this and neither to destroy someone’s reputation. Like some people may think of me because i’m a straight forward person, I say what i want to say, sometimes it doesn’t matter if i hurt their feelings. I know a lot of people will raise their eyebrows and might judge me if they saw this one. Actually, I’m still contemplating on what really happened, I never thought that this photo that i took from her will be the last time that i can be with her.  We used to hang out, Our common ground was driving. I was really surprised that she let me teach her to drive, and giving me her full trust in driving her car especially during at night knowing for a fact that i am not a good driver as well and i am also having a hard time driving at night because my eyes are really weak. But still she gave me opportunity to do so even if i am not really sure of what i am doing. Yes, we went out a several times and the sad thing about it, i caught myself starting to like her or maybe i was infatuated. And i think that was the turning point which led to my downfall. Why? because by that time i started posting statuses about how i feel, even started stalking what she is doing for a day, taking a look at her profile every now and then. I don’t want to sound cheesy here and i am not a hypocrite to say that i never felt something for her. Then one time i found out that she already unfriend me. I was shocked by that scenario then i started messaging her to ask what happened then the next thing i knew i was already blocked. I was not given a chance to explain my side, was not able to know the real reason. It made an impact to myself, i started blaming myself even though i don’t know the reason, looking for answers to all the questions that i’ve been hiding inside. Until know i’m still hoping that we could still talk, to patch up things, to make up for the things that I’ve done. I just want to clear things. I want to say sorry if i had hurt her in what ways, if i annoyed her or whatever reasons. I am really sorry. I’m asking for forgiveness from the bottom of my heart. It’s been a year. I know time can heal wounds. If there is a lesson that i have learned, posting too much statuses, making“parinig” to your crushes or even to your enemies will do you no good. It will only back fire on you and it will make things complicated. Because not all people may understand your posts, your feelings, appreciate you etc. sometimes they might take it against you. So, if you can control your self from posting such statuses, control yourself and your emotions.

WEEKEND BUDDY

Before i used to have a weekend buddy to turn a boring weekend to an enjoyable one. If i am not mistaken this was the time of the year last year when i started going out with her. Started by communicating via comments through status updates in FB then the rest was history.

I am not posting this to make a name for myself, to brag about this and neither to destroy someone’s reputation. Like some people may think of me because i’m a straight forward person, I say what i want to say, sometimes it doesn’t matter if i hurt their feelings. I know a lot of people will raise their eyebrows and might judge me if they saw this one.

Actually, I’m still contemplating on what really happened, I never thought that this photo that i took from her will be the last time that i can be with her. 

We used to hang out, Our common ground was driving. I was really surprised that she let me teach her to drive, and giving me her full trust in driving her car especially during at night knowing for a fact that i am not a good driver as well and i am also having a hard time driving at night because my eyes are really weak. But still she gave me opportunity to do so even if i am not really sure of what i am doing.

Yes, we went out a several times and the sad thing about it, i caught myself starting to like her or maybe i was infatuated. And i think that was the turning point which led to my downfall.

Why? because by that time i started posting statuses about how i feel, even started stalking what she is doing for a day, taking a look at her profile every now and then. I don’t want to sound cheesy here and i am not a hypocrite to say that i never felt something for her.

Then one time i found out that she already unfriend me. I was shocked by that scenario then i started messaging her to ask what happened then the next thing i knew i was already blocked.

I was not given a chance to explain my side, was not able to know the real reason. It made an impact to myself, i started blaming myself even though i don’t know the reason, looking for answers to all the questions that i’ve been hiding inside.

Until know i’m still hoping that we could still talk, to patch up things, to make up for the things that I’ve done. I just want to clear things. I want to say sorry if i had hurt her in what ways, if i annoyed her or whatever reasons. I am really sorry.

I’m asking for forgiveness from the bottom of my heart. It’s been a year. I know time can heal wounds.

If there is a lesson that i have learned, posting too much statuses, making“parinig” to your crushes or even to your enemies will do you no good. It will only back fire on you and it will make things complicated. Because not all people may understand your posts, your feelings, appreciate you etc. sometimes they might take it against you. So, if you can control your self from posting such statuses, control yourself and your emotions.

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