Before i used to have a weekend buddy to turn a boring weekend to an enjoyable one. If i am not mistaken this was the time of the year last year when i started going out with her. Started by communicating via comments through status updates in FB then the rest was history.
I am not posting this to make a name for myself, to brag about this and neither to destroy someone’s reputation. Like some people may think of me because i’m a straight forward person, I say what i want to say, sometimes it doesn’t matter if i hurt their feelings. I know a lot of people will raise their eyebrows and might judge me if they saw this one.
Actually, I’m still contemplating on what really happened, I never thought that this photo that i took from her will be the last time that i can be with her.
We used to hang out, Our common ground was driving. I was really surprised that she let me teach her to drive, and giving me her full trust in driving her car especially during at night knowing for a fact that i am not a good driver as well and i am also having a hard time driving at night because my eyes are really weak. But still she gave me opportunity to do so even if i am not really sure of what i am doing.
Yes, we went out a several times and the sad thing about it, i caught myself starting to like her or maybe i was infatuated. And i think that was the turning point which led to my downfall.
Why? because by that time i started posting statuses about how i feel, even started stalking what she is doing for a day, taking a look at her profile every now and then. I don’t want to sound cheesy here and i am not a hypocrite to say that i never felt something for her.
Then one time i found out that she already unfriend me. I was shocked by that scenario then i started messaging her to ask what happened then the next thing i knew i was already blocked.
I was not given a chance to explain my side, was not able to know the real reason. It made an impact to myself, i started blaming myself even though i don’t know the reason, looking for answers to all the questions that i’ve been hiding inside.
Until know i’m still hoping that we could still talk, to patch up things, to make up for the things that I’ve done. I just want to clear things. I want to say sorry if i had hurt her in what ways, if i annoyed her or whatever reasons. I am really sorry.
I’m asking for forgiveness from the bottom of my heart. It’s been a year. I know time can heal wounds.
If there is a lesson that i have learned, posting too much statuses, making“parinig” to your crushes or even to your enemies will do you no good. It will only back fire on you and it will make things complicated. Because not all people may understand your posts, your feelings, appreciate you etc. sometimes they might take it against you. So, if you can control your self from posting such statuses, control yourself and your emotions.